I want a normal family. My therapist swears that there is no such thing, but surely many families function much better than mine. Navigating personal exchanges with my family feels something akin to skipping over landmines (and if you haven't read why those landmines exist, read here Part 2: Trapped in Hell, Thank You, Dad, … Continue reading Family Communication Landmines
Hallelujah, I have a job! Ya'll don't even know. I'm a teacher and TWO WEEKS before school starts I finally have a job offer. Actually, I got two job offers in the same day. A huge reason for my silence on my blog has simply been because of the stress of worrying about work, sending … Continue reading I’ve got a job!
“Well, we could have you bring food into session, and you can practice eating in front of me.” I tried so hard not to let her see my panic, but she saw right through me. She stayed silent, and I remained quiet too as I attempted to lower my heart rate into a normal zone. … Continue reading Therapy Changes: But I Don’t Want to be in Charge
Ahh! I can't believe I did it! I actually sat at the table and ate breakfast with my kids this morning. I was so scared to do it and then Vivian turned to me excited and said, "Yay! You've never eaten with me before!" My heart hurt when she said that, but it made me … Continue reading Really Successful Therapy Session
I guess it is about time I wrote about my story, how and why I developed PTSD. I've held off on writing about this because it is a complicated story, and one I find difficult to articulate. It wasn't a singular split-second event that caused Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Instead, it was an accumulation of … Continue reading My Story
In the depths of my depression, I couldn't cry. I think that was the worst part, to be in that much pain and not be able to cry. Now it's like I can't stop crying. Everything held in for those three years has come pouring forth. Tears upon tears upon tears. But it feels good, so … Continue reading Tears